MYLIFEISNOWHERE

MYLIFEISNOWHERE

Come to think of this. Then tell me. What do you get?  Well,Two things:  My Life is nowhere and My Life is now here. See how big the difference would be.

This meaningful statement shows a very simple truth about life that is often disregarded. How our life would be, depends on how we see it to be and how we want it to be. In other words, it lies solely on us because  we make our choice.

If you feel like dying,why not go out and see how many people there are fighting so hard to live just for one more day.

Got homework? there are many children who can't even go to school.

If you're sad because your wallet is empty, remember there are some who do not even have  a small purse and even the coins and money to place in it.

You feel like your home is so crowded, go out the street and see how many people are homeless.

If you can't find what you are looking for, why not look back? Who knows... what you are looking for may  just be behind you all along .

Whenever you feel alone,don't be. You have God. You're not alone and will never be.

If you have so many things to do, pray. Nothing to do? Might as well pray.

The bottom line is life is just a matter of perspective. If things aren't going well, then change your direction. Again, your life is what you want it to be. Positive thoughts will give you positive outcome. It is just a matter of gratefulness and appreciation.

Things are easier said than done? I know. This may sound cliche. It may be true. It might be difficult.. I myself have to admit, at times, I am still lost, not knowing where to stand and uncertain of which direction to follow. I am not sure what is waiting out there for me. But why worry? I have God. And I have chosen to view life from this angle, a side with faith that sees life as full of challenges, fun, joy, surprises and love.

I may not have everything in the superlative degree but I am happy. I may have so many regrets yesterday but I choose to look for what's in store tomorrow. And I would love to say 'My Life is Here!" How about your's? Well... go figure.... (wink)

I found this beautiful quote online.

Indeed true! 

How we perceive what life is 

and what life can offer us...

depends on how we view it.

on how we see it from where we we stand

and to wherever we would like to be heading to.

*...Life is great. And it becomes more wonderful when lived with love, hope and faith. =)

xoxo

-merce-

Happy and Grateful

How many times have we taken for granted what we have? And how many  circumstances have we not realized how fortunate we are, for who we are or what we are not, for what we have and what we do not have?

I am just human. And for so long, I have been  unsatisfied with with all the things that I have. Wishing and aiming for the things I want not realizing  all the worth of  everything I have.

But that was before I saw these people, incredible people. Every night I walk to work, I see these people who, despite of  their incapability are able to touch other  people's lives including mine.

They are actually blind people. Together with their guitar, they sing for people passing by under the bridge . They would sometimes sing alone. Other times they are accompanied by another who happens to be blind also. There would be some people who are kind enough to share what they have and drop some coin to the small box. For some, the incapability of those people are reason enough to share some goodness to them. But my reason was different.

The amount of coins I dropped on their box every time I pass by that bridge may not be too much. It may be just  a little amount only. But my reason for sharing is big enough.

Every time I hear the voice of those people, there is something intangible, something impalpable, something I could not explain. All i know is that there is something!

Reflecting now, I discover what that something is.

It is the  hope, faith, gratitude and sincerity overflowing in them that gets into me. Despite of the darkness they are in, whenever they smile and sing it is as if they have seen all the wonderful colors in the world . In spite of their incapability, they seem like more complete, contented and thankful  than those perfectly fit people.

More than I sharing to them, it is actually them giving more to me. It feels like all the hope, faith and gratefulness in them are flooded towards me. It is like the heaven showing me how fortunate I am for all the things that i have.  It is like Him showing me how blessed I am for being able to see all the colors and everything around me. It is a reminder for me to be grateful--- that I have my family who supports me so I don't need to experience all the hardships of life, that I have a home to stay in, that I have a work to earn, learn and support my needs, that I was able to eat 3 or more than 3 times a day, that I have clothes to wear and a million more reason to be grateful.

For giving me inspiration not only in writing this entry but for a lifetime inspiration, salute to them.
For the realization of how blessed I am and for making me see the worth of everything I have , I am truly and will be forever grateful.

"When life gives you lemon... you make lemonade."

=)

I Love...

Do you know what I love about mornings?
I love the sun, its light, its warmth.
I love how the color of the morning changes, imagine how it would glow as orange and slowly fade and how it could blind your vision.

I love how the morning could make everything wonderful.
And most importantly, I love how everything seems to get better in the morning.
Magical, isn't it!

Ang Sine ng Buhay

He is the director and you are the main actor. Your life---That's the film. You are responsible on how you would act in front of the camera and how you behave behind the scene.

In a very short span of time, I have met a lot of actors-actors who i am collaborating my film with. Taped on different location, no editing... just raw shots.

Everyone was placed on the center stage, on the spotlight.  And us, we follow no script.

I would have to say,  what I have now is indeed a wonderful film. I am grateful for the director who each day provides me with great acts and settings thus allowing me to learn, grow and explore.

One thing though, I hope my Director won't get tired of taping this film, not yet. For now I would love and hope that this film of mine would keep on rolling.

*...To be continued... =)

Get Enchanted

I was looking for nothing in particular when I found some old photos. This was taken about 5 years ago... Well nothing is better than to enjoy and have fun on different rides. Get enchanted! And Stay Young and Happy!

Old memory

 A picture holds a thousand stories. 
It keeps million memories. 

It allows you to look back and cherish all those moment. 

It gives you a chance to feel the past as if it is just today.  

I think the Sun is a great painter, He could paint the sky with the most wonderful shade of orange!

 

Master of Waiting

All through my life, I've been waiting. I may already be a queen of waiting and master of patience. (though the latter is still a question)

Waiting could be tiring but let me share the things that i would never get tired of waiting.

I always wait for the sun to rise and see what surprise is in-store for the day.
On the counterpart, i never get tired of waiting for the sun to set and find out how many stars would shine at night.

I would not get tired of watching the night sky waiting for a star to fall.

I always wait for a rainbow to appear after the rain and see how many of its color would be visible.

More than patience, waiting gives me a chance to see things in a different perspective, a different view and a different angle. Waiting is not really a burden. It is a challenge and a preparation for whatever lies ahead..

5 Minutes and Forever

I'm used to it. Waiting for something to happen. Waiting for a late friend to arrive. Waiting and standing on the line. Waiting for this and that.

I even often tell my friends that I am studying a degree- Bachelor of Arts in Patience: Major in Waiting.

But your case was different. At that moment, waiting for your response felt like forever. And every second that pass seemed like killing me, so disappointing. On my mind, I even gave you a one minute deadline to reply. But when you didn't, I still waited. Until I lose track of time. I fell asleep. When i woke up and checked my phone,  finally- there was your reply, after 5 minutes.

I smiled and was confused. How come you had this magic over me. Waiting for you... You made my five minutes feel like eternity.

The day He Got confused ...I had to Laugh

Ok. The truth is I really do not know how to start this.  But the thing is it just makes me laugh whenever I remember  how some got confuse with my name... with my single word, 2 syllable, 5 letter name- Mercy!

FIRST CONFUSION: "Macy? Are you Macy?"

They sound the same. One letter missing. This one is acceptable. =)

CONFUSION TO THE HIGHEST LEVEL: "Jennifer? Did you just say Jennifer?"

On this one, I really had to laugh. (ahaha =p) And when did the letter M sounds like the letter J?  (More laugh!!!) The man I was talking to confused Mercy with Jennifer. And I definitely had to spell my name for him. And when he finally got my name right, he was even able to throw some joke- "oh I need your Mercy today!!!"
(Laugh, Laugh, Laugh again!)

After  few minutes of talk, I was about to say goodbye when he said "I know a lot of Mercy in the Philippines, could you be the one I know (and mention the last name.)"
(More..more..more laugh...)

 The Point: No matter how bad or tiring your day may be, before the end of the day, Someone or Something would definitely make you smile... or laugh. (ahaha :p)


PS: Today I am Lucy!!!

Oh my... super laugh... :)  what's wrong with me? or them? ahaha :P

May Masabi Lang!

Newspaper. Television. Radio.Social networking sites. The issue had been the main content of all these media. Ask anybody and they would probably know this news.

The issue---Popular showbiz personalities versus veteran news reporter.

It was a week ago (or maybe two? :P) when the incident happened. Actress Claudine Barreto and husband Reymart Santiago along with some friends were involve in an airport incident with news reporter Mon Tulfo.

Was it because of the Super moon which boasted its presence during those time? Or was it because of the color pink clothes that the personalities involved were wearing ? Or perhaps, it still boils down to a person's character, personality, values and attitude, whatever you want to call it.

But I am not writing to determine the root of the issue. So, let's stop there!

At this moment, I would like to take a stand. I know it wouldn't matter but we have the freedom to express, right? so I'm voicing out my opinion anyway. >:)

I would like to take the side of Mr. Mon Tulfo...Not because by heart, I'm wearing the same shoes as him, Not because I once walk on the same field as him, Not because by passion  I will always belong to the same world as his- the world of media . But simply because, with the information I heard from news including those of some legal experts, I believe Mr. Tulfo had just been doing his call of duty.

The incident occurred in a  public place, involves public personalities and an issue worthy of a news. Tulfo must have been simply fulfilling his job.

He must have acted for what had happened concerns the public, something that people must know.  Why? Because it had something to do with the system of a well known airline company, because it deals with public figures and the most significant of all- because it deals with respecting human rights.

But I would just like to clarify that I have nothing against those showbiz personalities....so I am cutting this short...the lesson of the issue... True,we have the freedom, we have our rights but let us not forget  that along with these come responsibility, limitations and boundaries.  And for whatever our actions are, we must be held accountable.

Nightmare...

Etymologically, nightmares means unpleasant dreams, formed from night, and mare, which is an old English term for a demon that supposedly used to sit on sleeper’s chest causing them to have bad dreams.
Someone who nightmare will move restlessly in his sleep. Sometimes in pain, moaning, screaming, coughing but could not get up. Nightmares are very disturbing, because it can make a person become afraid and unable to sleep again. But in some cases nightmares could also cause death. -(MedicMagic.Net)-


This is actually a frightening fact! And unfortunately I had just one.

9:49PM
    I was in the sleeping quarters trying my best to get sleep. And then I fell asleep losing track of the minutes that passed by.

Then it all happened. I was in that the same room, still lying on the same bed.  I knew I was dreaming.- a dream inside a dream.

I was forcing myself to get up but I couldn't move even an inch. It was like my whole body was paralyzed. I tried to call  out the names of my friends who were also sleeping in that same room. But I failed. No matter how hard I tried, there was no voice coming out. I wanted to scream but there were only mouthing of words. No sounds at all. I remember calling my friend's name many times but she just wouldn't hear me.  I was really afraid. Then, there were blurred images, faces rather, unknown faces like ghosts appearing in front of my face. That was really creepy! I knew at that time, I have to find a way to wake up or else, I would be forever trapped in that nightmare. I was so scared thinking at any point I might not be able to go back to reality, that I might not wake up, that I might die. :(

I was dreaming, a really bad dream. And I knew there's only one hope for me to wake up and escape from that nightmare. I knew that when the door of that room open, I could wake up.

There were more and more scary images and faces passing in front of me while I was still lying in that bed.

 10:__PM

And then, the door opened. And right at that moment, I was awaken. I was right. My other friend, my only hope of escaping that nightmare arrived. I was expecting for her to come and when she did  I was really relieved. I was truly thankful.  Thanks Kar.:)

Looking back, I still can't believe that within almost 20 minutes or less, I experienced that horrible night mare. I still can't imagine that I would be forever sleeping in that room. I can not imagine myself dying on that room.


For whatever the reason of having that bad dream, I can only be grateful that I was able to wake up. Because I know that no matter how difficult real life may be, nothing can compare to all the wonders of life that is still waiting for me.

Why Not!

If committing mistakes and making error is the the best way to learn... then why not!!!

06:25am :)

Drained

There was nothing.
 But then, my heart keeps beating faster, and faster and faster. It was like a drum beating harder every time I tried to breath.
Then I wonder... maybe it would be right to just stop breathing, maybe the pain would also stop...
woah... it's 5:00 o'clock in the morning- no sleep yet and that was a crazy thought!!!
Maybe what I only need is a cup of hot milk or sundae, or marshmallows or just my fave hash brown!

Gooodmorning!!! :)

Don't You

Silent. Shy. Reserved. Introvert. These were the common terms  attached to me by people whom i have just met.

Reflecting on all the circumstances that i have been, these are probably true.

 I may have been the only one who remain silent. I may have been the only one who refuses to  do the talking and story telling.  I never wanted to be on the center stage, on the spotlight. I just don't like to be the center of everybody's  attention. I believe I was born to be a listener. Yup, i listen to what one says. I could laugh at their jokes.I could even cry with their heart felt stories. I could be just there...simply listening. But not always the main character 


.All the adjectives mentioned may be right. But at this moment, I would like to take a stand. The shy, silent, reserved and introvert me could be left at one corner whenever situation calls for the opposite me. (yes, when the situation calls only!!! haha :p)


I will not be specific  on these entry. I guess that's just another problem of mine- i am a private person!!! >:) not talking too much, not sharing too much.

But the bottom line is you can not judge a person by  your first impression. What you see is not always what you get. What you think is not always true. What you see may just be a part of a person's another personality.

The point is try to look on a different perspective. See different things at  different angle . And the most important thing, as the old saying goes- don't judge the book by its cover. Cliche'? But always true!




to be continued.... :)

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03:36am (beating time)

I f I could Then I W ould....

I f I could Then I Would....

- go back to the time when my parents met each other.:p

-travel the Philippines--- particularly in Batanes

-travel the world, visit different places.

-join Amazing Race (that's a short cut for me to travel the world) :p

-go for camping or mountain climbing or hiking or trekking

- try sky diving or scuba diving

- or go for extreme sky walk or edge coaster

- ride roller coaster

-experience bungee jump

-go for ice skating or skate boarding
                      In simpler terms... do adventurous activities. :)

-smile to everyone i meet down  the road

-establish my own charity or foundation

-build a library open for everyone

-plant a tree

-visit the church every Sunday

-read the bible or memorize the novena for St. Jude and for the Mother of Perpetual Help

-learn how to bake and cook

-read more books or write my own :p

-be able to paint or sketch

-bake and cook

-call my friends everyday

-write on this blog everyday

Insufficient

I still find each day too short for all the thoughts I want to think, all the walks I want to take, all the books I want to read, and all the friends I want to see. - John Burroughs-


5:24am:
With all the million ideas, hopes, dreams and aspirations that I have...each day is too short.

With the thousand of adventures and journey I want to experience...24 hours wouldn't be sufficient.

And with all the thoughts I have for all the people who really matter, indeed a day would never be enough.

6:05am (sleepy...)

mE Updates

Finally... i was able to visit you! it's been so long.
 Some <"ME Updates":
-> Still and always hoping things would work out just fine or great.
-> Been staying far from my hometown (I'll try to go home this coming Saturday! yeepee!)
 -> Drastic change on my system
-> Can't believe I'm losing weight. ( God, that's not what i want! >:l)
 -> Nights has become days. Days become nights!
 -> Starting to drink more milk ;)
-> Found new great friends

a million

Life always move that way. Whether we like it or not... we must deal with whatever it offers us, no matter how surprising , confusing and challenging it is.

And days after days, I am realizing how many circumstances have i let to pass because of the thousand existing what if's.

but despite that... i know i should still have the courage to go on because at the back of the negative things that these thousand what if's had caused, i believe that there are still a million chance waiting out there packed with so much hope,faith and love...